sunshine and storm beneath my wings

"Mungkin dia tidak tahu apa yang sesungguhnya ia lakukan. Tapi dia tahu apa yang dia lakukan. Dan mungkin kita tidak punya kemampuan untuk mengampuni. Yang bisa kita lakukan adalah berdamai dengan sisi lain manusia yang tak kita mengerti. Setidaknya, itu membuat kita tidak mengutuk dia atau membalas dia"

        - Lalita, Ayu Utami

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. 

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. 

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

– Bob Marley.

"Go to a coffee shop. Sit by the bar with the glass windows and look out. Look at all the people running to catch a train. All the girls with one too many shopping bags. All the couples too in love to care. Then you’ll see it - a bit of yourself in everyone. And somehow, sitting alone in a coffee shop had never felt so good."

I won't let myself underestimating me

"... technological advancements occur so rapidly, that humans themselves will not be able to keep pace and will be out-evolved by machines that are more intelligent than humans."

-Vincent Miller on Understanding Digital Culture

"Seseorang semestinya memutuskan bersama orang lain karena menemukan keutuhannya tercermin,

Bukan ketakutan akan sepi."

-Peluk, Dewi Lestari.

"Kalau universitas-universitas bagus hanya nerima yang pinter-pinter, kapan yang bodoh-bodoh pinter?"

-Sentilan Sentilun on Mata Najwa On Campus UGM.

"Although people believe they like to have lots of choice, in fact, having too many choices can be discouraging. Instead of making people feel more satisfied, a wide range of options can paralyze them"

-Gretchen Rubin