Dear Noi,
Maybe I should take back what I've said about meeting you on new years
eve. My friends said it's not the right thing to do even if I want it
so. I'm really sorry.
Maybe I should stop my steps here. It's enough for now. I
don't want to hurt other people. You are hers. It's not a right thing to
do, to miss each other, meet and share affection. I hope you don't
hurt her like you did to me, it was awful. You should learn how to treat
woman better, really. Not take them for granted.
In my opinion broken heart is not about us and our
ex-lover. It's only about our ownself. It's the consequence we should
face wisely. And the best thing to do is manage the tears, handle the
pain rightly and get over it. Sometimes, things happen because they have
to. Not for the good, but for the best. And in this life, there will
always people who betray us and make us cry. But I choose to let go of
the anger, pain, grudge and any intention for revenge. I learn to be
strong and big hearted from what you did to me. I really do. Even myself
surprised and feel releive because I can handle the depressed feeling
pretty well. I feel I'm strong to stand still, stand for my own
happiness and peace.
And I hope you too. Sure it hurts, face it, learn to let go the pain, make peace with yourself. I'm sure you can.
In the end, thank you, Noi. Four years with you is such a
beautiful memory I've ever had, a beautiful and unregretful mistakes I
ever did. I always hope you are doing great with your college, your debate
career, your new relationship with Eli and your life for sure. I'm sorry
if I have said or done something wrong that might hurt you. May the
happiness and peace will always brighten your days ahead. Happy new year
:)
